Hiding my flaws because ive heard it all
the voices screaming in my head
and in my face
no nigga will ever love me
im far too flawed
so i pretend to be happy
and hide the pain
behind a wide, quick smile
and a loud laugh
to mask the darkness seeping through
and the monsters creeping out
from deep within my mind and heart
Mama always told me
“baby hide those demons, never let them show
because when they see them
theyll leave you sad and lonely
broken and alone”
but…isnt it beautiful
the darkness that resides within us
hiding our secrets and fears
the darkness that knows our every thought
our every hope, our every dream
isnt loving, the way it wraps its arms around us
taking our whole being
why should i hide who i am?
hide the pain that made me beautiful
the sadness that made me loving?
why bury these things?
why hide who i am inside, and become someone im not?
why not embrace my inner monsters
and allow them to flow free
and help me grow and finally be free?